I guess you’ve heard this a lot. When life gives you lemon, make lemonade!!! And, in some sense, it’s true. Either you have less options, or you just don’t have any choice.
Let’s take this example… When you’re broke, and you have a little to spend, you have two choices: either starts being frugal, or you start to get some loans. All the ball is in your hands. Really!
I don’t say that I’m good at handling things in my life, but I keep on learning. It’s life a never-ending learning process, isn’t it? Life gives me so much shits, and I have to deal it – like it or not. However, the more I learn to accept things in my life, I start to feel really better miraculously. Eventually, I end up smiling to myself. Ah, life is full of surprises!
I have always a kind of situation which I call it “a six-year circle.” I did not realise the six years period till recently I had a thought of it. So, what’s circle is that? Let me be honest… It’s a circle when I feel like I’m being at the crossroad and do not really know which path I should take. As far as I remember, the first happened around 2004 when I was about to graduate from college. I was really thinking hard what I career I supposed to have. Would I run around to bring my resume to apply jobs in bank or in media? I never thought of myself applying jobs in Foreign Affair aka Department of State. I’m never interested to become a diplomat. The only reason I studied IR was I always want to travel the world – for free. 🙂 So, there I was…. Became a student of IR and I really forgot the things I learned for 5 years when I graduated. What a shame. 🙂 But don’t get me more… I learned a lot. But it’s more than the science itself. I learned a lot during the process of studying.
The second cycle was in 2010. At that time, I was at the crossroad again – whether putting all my courage to quit my job and just travel around and explore Eastern Indonesia or going back to graduate school after uncountable failures. So, I decided to apply for grad school in my alma mater but at the same time tried my “luck” on scholarship for the last time. Ah, and this was the drama. I got accepted for the scholarship just minutes after I completed paying the tuition and registering for classes. Hahahaha. Life’s superb! But at least, I knew where I needed to got next: GRAD SCHOOL in the US. Being back to school at the age of 30 was not an easy game to play. Hahaha. It was heel larious and lots of drama back then. But I was happy being part of that process too! Grad school gave me lots of lessons especially to love myself more and more, and realised what’s really important in life.
And now again.. It’s 2016, and I’m back to this cycle… hahaha. But I can’t really tell you what it is. No, not yet…. But there’s different in ways I responded this cycle. Yes, there’s in this cycle when I was brooding. But it was not that long. And I was less nervous and worried compared to two cycles. Maybe, getting older have made me wiser at some points… Hehehehe. In the last cycle, I live to the fullest… Ah, I remember good a really good quote…
“You’ve gotta dance like there’s nobody watching, Love like you’ll never be hurt, Sing like there’s nobody listening, And live like it’s heaven on earth.”- William Purkey.
And, I hope I will be still like that…. TO LIVE MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST.